The time here is passing quickly, I don't think I'll be satified with leaving when I do, but I am trying to make good use of it while I have it. I'm starting to get to know the Griffith's better as the days pass, and I like them. I've noticed a more relaxed atmosphere after the first week passed, more of a normalicy to the days, I like that because I've been able to hang out with Robert with any tension. I know that the tension I was feeling was in large part due to myself, but there was also a newcomer type feel between him and I that has been lifted through working with and for him, making it more casual. I talked with Robert and Lois for awhile yesterday, I dodn't get a chance to ask them for LIly, but we'll be talking more soon.

In other news, I went to Yosimte with Lily and had a blast, that place is really phenomenal. I've attached a picture of the two of us there and a couple of the whole family's trip up to their cabin at shaver lake.

Rollercoaster days

I'm in California visiting my girl and her family, and it's only been four days and already I've run through a gamut of emotions. I arrived here already under the weather with a bad cold, and then quickly experienced an incredible emotional high by seeing my girlfriend for the first time in 10 months, and all that comes with seeing the girl you love again. So you can maybe see the conflicting circumstances I've found myself in already, but put on top of that the strange position of being here with obvious intentions yet having to wait on a somewhat strained/awkward relationship with her dad has been weighing on me heavily. I don't mean to be rude with that last statement, just honest. I do not understand Robert Griffith, and I won't anytime soon, but I'm working on it, and I want to work on it. Right now I think I'm just overloaded with anticipation and expectations, those are never good, because they rarely have anything to do with reality, they just form a created reality that soon is shattered, I know this, but it's hard to put into practice sometimes.

I'll be updating sporadically these four weeks I have here, a lot is going to be happening, hopefully not dominated by bad things, and I'll try to be as frank as possible in what I say, heaven knows I tend to jumble things up in communicating.